And it dawned on me, while reading a book, be the change.
I’m not going to sugar coat it, yesterday was awful. I was in tears twice due to a crazy amount of stress and feeling completely out of control of everything (which by the way is like my biggest fear in life). I got home feeling defeated, a huge stack of work to be done and not a bit of motivation left in me.
I took 30 minutes to read a book I just started. After 30 minutes of reading about Rorke Denver’s SEALs training I quickly read an article assigned to my office by my boss. Both basically slapped me with the same message in very different ways.
How can I possibly expect things from my team that even I am falling terribly short of? I want a team that is energetic with go-getter attitudes, people who are proactive and helpful. I can’t expect anything from someone who I myself am not willing to take on.
My moods, my personal feelings of defeat or being overwhelmed, those are not the problems for my team to see on my face. They need me to be 110% of me – happy, encouraging, and positive. So today I went in with a smile on my face and as happy as I could manage (considering the long hours I’ve been keeping) and was annoying even myself with my positivity.
I don’t know if it made a dent today, but I’m convinced, if for no one other than myself, that eventually my positive energy will make for a positive change on the team. That will begin to work more closely and in sync with each other towards our commons goals.
Now please let’s all join hands and sing Kumbaya…kidding. But seriously this is about as touchy feely as I get so hope you enjoyed it and don’t expect it too often. 🙂