Lately, I have been wondering about my direction in life. Not that work is terrible. Granted, I don’t love every minute of every day, but I have actually dealt with worse environments…not that my other insane workplaces should be the measuring stick for a healthy workplace, but I digress.
My Neon Sign
Recently, I sat through a church service that I am 99.9% sure was just for me. After the reading of The Word and the first hymn, “Trust and Obey”, I felt like maybe, just maybe, I should start paying attention. By the time the sermon was over, JM looked at me and said, “Well I’m not sure why the rest of us even bothered to show up because that was obviously just for you.” It’s one thing when you feel like it is something you should pay attention to, but when you boyfriend calls you out, then you can’t really deny it.
I’ve been contemplating what direction to go. Literally praying for something to make sense. Which sadly for me, I’m pretty ignorant when it comes to signs, so I need giant neon flashing signs. (Remember the post about “fix it, Jesus”…that’s how oblivious I am). I’ve been trying to figure out what my passion is because well that’s the best place to find your direction in life, right?
My next direction in life
So one night I had a dream about having my own business. It wasn’t a huge business – it was something that I enjoyed and it made me happy. After talking to JM about it, he assured me I wasn’t completely stupid. Of course, I take that with a grain of salt because what boyfriend would completely dash his girlfriend’s hopes and dreams! Okay, maybe I was being a tad overly dramatic, but you get my point. So now, I need to figure out if this is something I can make a reality. The amount of preparation and research to even find out if your idea if viable or not is crazy.
This whole process will be a lesson in trust, obedience, and persistence. I have enough amazing women that are dear friends to know this path isn’t easy. It’s full of hard work, a times self-doubt, and tough lessons. My hope is I can learn from this and hopefully find my direction in life.
Have you made a leap of faith before? What kept you going when things got hard?